When the journey becomes slow…

It’s been over five years since I started this journey. Five years of studying the craft, blogging, and pursuing a career in writing.

Sometimes I get so accustomed to my life that I forget that I am living my dream. I become too focused on what I want to happen in the future—how much further I still have to go—that I forget how God has gotten me to where I am today. 

I found this essay I wrote for my English class when I was 13, the year that God laid it on my heart to write Christian fiction for teenagers. (I didn’t even know the genre existed.)

It says:

“When I was three years old I started writing stories for fun. Now, I hope to graduate with a degree in journalism, and soon become a best-selling author. I would love to write children books, but God has also given me the desire to write books that can relate to other teenagers on a Christian basis, so that is one thing I hope to do when I get older. God has laid these desires on my heart for a specific reasons, and I cannot wait to begin fulfilling God’s plan for my life!”

My 13-year-old self. =)

There will always be new dreams on the horizon, new levels that we want to reach. But sometimes we have to take a moment to see how far we’ve already come. We have to remember that one day we were only dreaming for this moment.

No, the journey isn’t fast nor is it easy. It’s a process. And often, things do not turn out the way we had hoped.

However, I have to remind myself that this is the planting season. These past five years have been a season of planting the seeds of my future, growing closer to God, and preparing for my future ministry. We have to view our life through eyes of faith rather than through the natural realm. The process of pursuing your dreams requires a lot of patience, a lot of faith, and several days of working without seeing any immediate results.

But the only way to reap a harvest is to go through these seasons. Because you’ll never see growth if you don’t first take the time to plant and water the seeds.

Romans 4:18-24 says:

 “When everything was hopeless, Abraham believed anyway, deciding to live not on the basis of what he saw he couldn’t do but on what God said he would do.”

This fall didn’t exactly turn out the way I had planned. Being diagnosed with diabetes really took its toll on me, and I was also planning on having a much more packed book tour schedule than I do now.

However, I am very grateful for the events that I have been able to schedule for this fall. And I am also thankful for my new friendship with Caroline George.

I have never had someone that relates with me so much, and vice versa. Even though we are different in a lot of ways, we are also very like-minded as well. We share similar passions: writing, coffee, reading, and Jesus. We both know what it’s like to pursue our dream at a young age and to have others question this decision. And we both have never quite fit in with others our age. We have recently gotten together every week to film videos for our new YouTube Channel, MoonAndArrowAuthors (you can view them here!).

I’ve also had 2 book signings since my last post on this blog. The first one was at the FreshTaste event in my hometown, and the second one was a book signing with Caroline at a coffee shop in NC (which was strangely similar to the one in Purple Moon).

Caroline and I are also visiting two homeschool groups tomorrow. I’m excited! I love having the opportunity to reach teens, to share with them my story and encourage them to pursue their dreams as well.

There’s another homeschool group I’m visiting (by myself) on December 8th, another one on Dec. 12th with Caroline, and a few other homeschool groups and schools in January. =)

Also, stay tuned for my new Etsy shop opening soon! Since my mom is an artist and I am a writer, we have decided to combine the two by creating unique art journals. I can’t wait to share them with you all!

Although I am in a slow season of my journey right now, I am very thankful for what God has done and is doing. My goal has never been to make it big, to be rich and famous. Sure, I would LOVE to have the opportunity to influence thousands of teens! But honestly, fame has never been my intention to write. I write for the ministry aspect of it.

And recently, after reading several reviews of Purple Moon on Amazon, I’ve come to realize: I have already reached my goal. I have already made an impact on teenagers through my writing.

So if that is as far that I come in my writing journey—if I never publish any more books for the rest of my life—then I will be completely satisfied in just knowing that I have already made a difference.

And that alone would be worth this journey.

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